Just gonna rant in this post, sorry, you've been warned.
So this started around the time I got back from vacation, which was around the middle of August. My boyfriend was convinced that I had "changed" since I came back, which I think isn't true. He claims that I'm acting different and that I'm not my usual self. I know he doesn't know the truth because he doesn't know who I really am, I found I'm good at lying to certain people about who I really am; he was one of them. So he kept going on and on about that and then when I started school he claimed that we didn't see each other enough. For him it was; you had to see each other at least 2-3 times a week, which is ridiculous. Our schedules don't match up since he works like all day and I can't see him in the evenings because I'm studying for school. He still complains, so he said that we should take a break. I was actually relieved, it gave me time to think, so now I realize that I don't like him that way anymore. I actually may have never liked him, I know I said "I love you" to him but I think it was because he said "I love you" to me after a few weeks of dating. I'm only in high school so I don't want too much of a commitment, probably later on in life since my goal is to travel the world to work, and I can't have a family or anything else that will hold me down. I only have a sister and a bunch of cousins, which is okay because when I get older I don't have to see them everyday and it wouldn't hurt their feelings. In fact, I don't see them very often now, I see my sister everyday but most of the time we don't even talk to each other. It doesn't mean I hate my sister though, I really do love her and my mom and dad but they are family, not a boyfriend, kids or a husband. Now whenever we talk, he just brings up on how I'm different and himself. For example, I told him what colleges were my number colleges because he asked and when I said I wanted to go to the farthest one, he commented back saying, "just want to distance yourself from me and your family" this happens every time. I'm sick of it, I really want to tell him to back off and that I'm never getting back together with him. I probably should do that in person though, and not over text like he did when he said we should take a break. Why do relationships have to be so complicated for me?
I'm sorry for this rant, I just needed to get it off my chest. It probably doesn't make sense either, sorry again. Hope you all have better luck with love than me.
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